Dear anyone who'll listen,
I'm meant to be happy, my exams have finished and I'm on reading week. But I'm finding it hard to smile.
My parents and brother are arguing all the time. Luckily I'm not physically around them but they all contact me individually to complain about the others. It drives me mad. Their problems seem so petty to me, and they don't affect me. But their complaining does. I want to tell them to stop being selfish, but I can't. I'm a chronic avoider of conflict. Meh.
A couple of weeks I had a go at my ex. Basically we're still really good friends after we split up. But I didn't think he was putting the effort in. And yeh, he hasn't spoken to me since. I like to pretned I'm not bothered. But I am.
I should be going out on reading week, but I'm not. I still don't feel confident enough to invite myself along with friends or whatever.
I get into this mood. Then I think what right do I have to complain. I've got it good. Most people are a lot worse off than me. And that just makes me feel worse.
PS. I'm sorry. I needed to vent my feelings.